University of Eternity Chapter 19 Wave of Transition

Chapter 19

Wave of Transition

BPOV

            Weeks had passed, every few days I would have dinner with Charlie, but for the most part the days were spent surfing, hiking, or Alice and Rose would drag me away for “girl time”. My nights were mostly spent with Edward, if on the rare occasion I did stay at Charlie’s Edward would sneak into my room; we were inseparable and I was growing closer and more in love with him everyday. Even Charlie was realizing that there was a guy in my life, although he didn’t press for the details, he and Edward had met briefly, and Charlie played his fatherly role, as was expected. Even Alice showed up a few times showering Charlie with her charms and of course he was instantly taken with her. Which is what brings me to the present. It has been decided that Alice and I are going to live with each other as roommates in Seattle. Which is really just a cover for Edward because of course Edward and Jasper will be living with us as well, but for Charlie’s sake, it will appear as if it will just be Alice and I.

            So, today we are heading to Seattle to look for a place; something I have to admit that I am not entirely excited about. Given Alice’s taste for more luxurious surroundings but I guess if I want to be apart of this whole thing, it is something that I will have to get used to.

            “Bella isn’t this exciting?” Alice asked me, pulling me out of thoughts.

            “Yeah Alice…it’s great” I tried sounding as enthusiastic as I could. But I knew she could sense my reservation about the whole thing, and just rolled her eyes at me.

            “Bella don’t worry, it will be great…trust me” She smirked at me.

            “Alice…not fair with the whole…looking into my future business” I said in my defense.

            “Sorry…but it will be” She just smiled and turned back around to flip through songs on the iPod until she found one that she liked. I just sighed and leaned against Edwards shoulder. He leaned down and kissed the top of my head and put his arm around me.

            “No worries baby…don’t let it get to you…I don’t care where we live…just as long as you’re with me…that’s all that matters to me” A small smile played on my lips and I closed my eyes, just enjoying him next to me. The song “We’re all in this Together” by Katie Herzig came on.

            “Very funny Alice” I said to Alice over the song.

            “What?” She said like she had no clue what she was doing when she put the song on. “Okay, Okay…next song” She let out a small laugh. I opened my eyes and I could see Jasper smiling at me in the rearview mirror. Before next song came on and I saw that Alice and Edward were giving each other that we’re-talking-to-each-other-without-actually-talking” look.

            “What?” I asked.           

            “Nothing baby…its just Alice being Alice” Edward said. I just shrugged it off and the song started “Lucky” by Jason Mraz featuring Colbie Caillat. And that’s when it all made sense. Edward started to sing to me. So I joined him, singing the part of Colbie Caillat, when the song ended we all laughed and Edward kissed me and I wrapped my arms around his torso.

            “Feel better?” Edward asked me with a smile.

            “Yes” I simply smiled back knowing that, that was what Edward and Alice were silently talking about. We listened to quite a few good songs before we finally made it to Seattle. Some of my favorites like “Holes to Heaven” by Jack Johnson, “Hawaiian Girl” by Fiji, “Sun is Shining” by Bob Marley and the Whalers, “She is Music to Me” by Ekolu, “So Nice” by Natural Vibrations, “Dawn of Time” by Tribal Seeds, and “Periscopes” by The Beautiful Girls.

            “So Bella I have to tell you something” Alice said as we pulled into a parking garage.

            “What’s that Ali?” I asked her. I wasn’t really surprised.

            “Well we don’t really have to look for a place…you see Esme kind of already had a place ready for us in Seattle…we are just coming to meet her here…ya know to like go over how we want it decorated and stuff” I definitely wasn’t surprised.

            “Figures” I simply stated.

            “You’re not mad?” She asked.

            “Why would I be mad…I kind of figured something like this would happen…I mean you guys own like half the world already…why wouldn’t you have a place already in Seattle” I said sarcastically waving my hand.

            “Bells” Jasper just looked at me

            “Hey no fair with the mood control their Jasper”

            “Okay…sorry” He said apologetically.           

            “Well you know what I mean…I just meant that your family has a lot of money and property…that’s all” In my serious voice. Edward just chuckled at my side, wrapping his arms around me; he pulled me into a hug.

            “I love you Bella Swan” He said simply and kissed me soundly. “Come on…let’s not leave Esme waiting” He smiled and took my hand walking me towards the elevator. We all stepped inside and Jasper hit the button to the top floor marked PH.

            “PH?” I asked.

            “Penthouse” Jasper replied.

            “Of course…what else would it mean”, I said once again in my sarcastic tone.

            “Bella we are going to need the room…I mean seriously…trust me on this” Alice said in her just-trust-me tone of voice.

            “Whatever…I’m just along for the ride…” I said laughing to myself. Edward squeezed my hand and looked at my curiously. I just shrugged and shook my head telling him that it was really nothing.

            The elevator doors opened directly into the apartment or should I say “Penthouse”, we all stepped out and we were instantly greeted by Esme’s smiling face.

            “Well hello there…I was wondering when you were going to show up…so Bella I know this is probably a bit much, but I just want you to know that you get first pick, I want this to feel like it’s your home because it is dear…okay?” She said as she reached out for me. I broke away from Edward and walked towards her, letting her wrap her arm around my shoulder and lead me into the foyer.

            “Okay” I said shyly “I appreciate that…I do…its just…well you know I am not used to all of this…its just a little out of my league is all” We walked over to an area which I assumed was the living room, there was already a couch there, she had books and fabric samples, magazines and anything else you could imagine for designing a space laid out.

            “It’s okay dear…just take your time and don’t worry you will be just fine, don’t think that you have to pick the biggest and the best of anything…just go with what feels right…go with what you like…and I will take care of the rest” She said with that comforting smile. She gave me a motherly squeeze and everyone else came in and took a seat and we went to work.

            After a couple of hours and hundreds of decisions later, Edward ordered me some takeout. Esme had walked me through the entire apartment, showing me all of the rooms. There was a total of four bedrooms, the living room, kitchen, five bathrooms, an entertainment room, office/library, and to my surprise there was even an outdoor terrace that had a small pool with a hot tub. The entire place was overwhelming, I couldn’t even imagine how much a place like this must of cost and I didn’t even want to think about it. I had no idea how I was going to explain this place to Charlie and Rene.  But apparently Dr. Cullen had talked to Charlie earlier in the week saying that us girls were to stay in his “Seattle Townhouse” while we were in school and that it was arrange for me to pay him rent, which at first he said was a ridiculous idea, but it was at Charlie’s insistence and a price was negotiated and settled. But in reality I wasn’t actually paying them anything and said money was just going back into my “new account” that Edward had already set up, seeing as I was already part of the family. I mean he had already given me that damn credit card as it was.  The doorbell rang signaling that my food had arrived.

            “I’ll get it” Alice said jumping up from the couch.

            “You okay baby?” Edward asked me.

            “Yeah…just trying to process all of this…I am just not used to it all…it’s a lot to take in Edward…I mean I am just a simple girl from Hawaii. I lived in a small three bedroom hale near the water…nothing special ya know…same as everyone else just trying to survive…and well now…now I have all this and I didn’t do anything to earn it…I mean why? Why me?” I just looked at him; I could see the worry in his eyes.

            “Come here” He said and I got up and went to sit on his lap. “Baby it’s just money…it doesn’t mean anything…and as far as what other people think…well it doesn’t matter…you don’t have to tell them…it’s not like we flash it around because really we don’t…yes we have a lot of stuff…but it’s just stuff…what’s important is you and me…our family…your family…friends…that’s important…we hide the bulk of our wealth…I mean Emmett drives a Jeep because we try and keep a low profile, but in Seattle we have a little more room, so yes the apartment is a bit more opulent…but that doesn’t mean anything baby…it’s not like everyone on campus is going to know that you live here…right? And you can have any car you want…you don’t have to get some flashy expensive big car…but I would feel better if you drove something safer and more reliable than your truck” He looked at me trying to get me to understand. He pulled me close to him, resting his head on my shoulder. I sighed, I did understand even though it was still a lot to take in.

            “Okay I will try and as far as the car thing goes…I will try too, but not until we move here okay…I don’t want to flash that in front of Charlie…that truck was a gift…maybe I could leave it with him and it could be my Forks truck or something and I could have a car for Seattle and it will be my Seattle car…okay…how does that sound?”

            “Sounds like a deal” He said. He reached up and cupped my chin pulled my face down so he could kiss me. The kiss was soft and slow, and was exactly what I needed, but before I could deepen it Alice chimed in.

            “Bella your foods ready” Then she bounced right back out of the room.

            I got up from Edward’s lap and headed towards the kitchen to eat. Edward stood and sat with me while I ate. Esme was at the counter making phone calls and placing orders for furniture and various things for the apartment. She smiled over at Edward and I while she talked. Such the woman of business she was. As I finished Edward took my trash and threw it out. Esme walked over and sat down in the chair across from me.

            “So that was easy…now we just have to get the place painted to your liking and get you guys all moved in…did you know what date you wanted to be in by?”

            “Oh…um I think we wanted to be here the week before classes start…I wanted to get familiar with campus and the city a bit more…maybe look for a job or something” She smiled at me.

            “You know Bella you don’t have to work”, She said.

            “Yeah I know…but I was thinking a job more along the lines for my photography not necessarily for money…but more for the experience…maybe some freelance work or something…I could show my portfolio around and see if anything comes up” Her smile widened.

            “I think that is a great idea dear…even though I…well you know…even though I am what I am…I still have a career…we all have at certain points…Carlisle has always managed to be a doctor…Edward has always had his business in some capacity…we have all maintained our identity in some form…I mean you have too…it helps…makes this life manageable…worthwhile in a sense I guess…helps fill the space I guess you could say” She patted the back of my hand and stood. “Well I have more calls to make…so what are you kids going to be doing for the rest of the day?”

            “Oh I was thinking of taking Bella on a tour” Edward said. I had no idea he had that planned.

            “Oh that sounds wonderful…you two have fun” She winked at me and went back to her phone calls.

            “So what do you think? You ready to head out?” Edward asked.

            “I guess so…um…what about Jasper and Alice?” I asked in return.

            “Oh they have plans of there own…and don’t worry all the arrangements have been made…you just leave everything up to me” He said with a smile.

            “Arrangements?” I asked with an inquisitive look.

            “Yep” He said accentuating the ‘p’, he held out his hand and I took it.

            We both waived goodbye to Esme and headed towards the Elevator. But before we left, Edward led me towards one of the bedrooms.

            “There is a bag in the bathroom with some clothes…Alice packed it…you will need to change. I will meet you by the elevator in 15 minutes okay” He kissed me quickly and headed off. I gave him a questioning look. “I am going to go change as well” I just nodded in recognition.

            I walked into the bathroom and opened the bag a bit wary of what Alice may have packed for me. But to my surprise, she had packed a pair of black skinny jeans, a dark grey flowing top, and black lace lingerie to wear underneath. Along with it, she included, black heels, a long silver pendent necklace, and a black leather little jacket to wear with it. I changed and put the shoes on, packing my other clothes in the bag. I did notice that there was a toothbrush and some makeup, there was also another change of lounging around clothes; she had packed me an overnight bag. I brushed my teeth and put on a small amount of makeup, grabbing the bag I headed towards the elevator to meet Edward. He had changed into a pair of dark wash jeans, a button down and put on a black leather coat, with a pair of black leather boots. He looked fucking hot as he. His hair was all messy and I just wanted to jump on him right then and there.

            “Damn Bella…you look fucking hot baby” He said as his hand came across his bottom lip before he licked it. I pulled my bottom lip in between my teeth biting it slightly.

            “Thanks…mmm you too” I said as I sauntered over to him. I wrapped my arms around him. With the heels on I was almost his height and I leaned up just a little and brought my mouth to his. The kiss was hot and deep. His hands slid down my back and grabbed onto my ass. My body pressed to his and it was my body’s natural reaction for both of my legs to hitch up around his waist. A guttural groan played in his chest and I felt him turn me around. My back made contact with the elevator doors. “Mmm” Escaped my mouth, fuck I wanted more; I didn’t care about getting my tour anymore, I wanted a tour of Edward’s body instead.

            “Baby…we…ugh…”I wouldn’t let him speak, as I pulled his lips back to mine. “Baby…mmm…baby…we need to stop…we have plans” He said as he broke away from me. A pout formed on my now swollen lips.

            “Edward…” He cut me off before I could continue.

            “I promise…later baby…and it will be worth it…trust me.” He said planting one chaste kiss on my lips and setting me back down on my feet. He grabbed my hand and pressed the button for the elevator.

             We made it down towards the parking garage and Edward led me towards a black car. It was a sleek, black, sports car.

            “Edward is this your car?” I asked somewhat taken back by it.

            “Yes” He said with a devilish grin “It’s a 2011 Aston Martin Vanquish…technically they aren’t out on the market yet…but I have my ways” He said with a wink and I heard the doors unlock. He pulled the door open for me and I just stood there a moment taken back by him. He just stood there with that damn sexy smirk on his face.

            “Shall we baby” He said and leaned down giving me a hard kiss. Snapping me out of my shock. Doesn’t flash his money my ass. I climbed into the car and Edward shut my door. Well fuck me side ways. This was going to be an interesting tour apparently; I wonder what exactly he had planned. Edward placed our bags in the back and climbed in the driver seat, bringing the engine to life, it purred and the vibrations of it caused a small smile to form on my face. Edward looked over at me and smirked raising his eyebrow at me. I just shrugged my shoulders and smirked back.

            “What?” I asked, knowing exactly what. This car was fuckhot and now I understood why Edward had bought it.

            “Oh you know what baby”, He said, as he revved the engine slightly causing me to squirm in my seat a little. “Exactly” He put the car in dear and pulled out of the garage smirking his damn sexy smirk. Oh yes indeed this was going to be a very interesting night indeed. In fact now I was very much looking forward to it.

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WHAT'S YOUR POISON Chapter 6 Dark End of the Street

Chapter 6

Dark End of the Street

EPOV

            Standing there at the dark end of the street, waiting on the curb for the cab her eyes were penetrating mine. When the cab pulled up we both got in and I told him the address to my apartment, we just sat there staring at one another, hand in hand. Our chests rising and falling, eyes never moving except to blink, “SIR”

            “Huh?” I was suddenly startled and my eyes broke from Bella’s and shot towards the cabby. “I’m sorry what?”

            “We’re here Sir…$14.50 for the ride” He said nonchalantly.

            “Oh yeah right” I could still feel Bella’s eyes on me. I reached for my wallet and grabbed a twenty out and handed it to him “Here man…keep the change” I opened the door sliding out and I pulled Bella along with me. I hurried through the lobby, the elevator was open, thank god and we were able to get in right away. We stepped into the elevator still hand in hand, I reached over and pushed the button to my floor, the door closed and the elevator began to move. Neither one of us spoke, but our eyes moved to star into one another’s yet again. I didn’t even notice as the elevator car began to move, I didn’t notice the music, the only thing I noticed was the look in Bella’s eyes, deep and longing. She was telling me everything I needed to know, everything I had ever wanted and hadn’t known that I needed in that look. It was frightening and calming all at once, but before I could do anything about it, the elevator door opened. I pulled her outside and down the hallway to the door of my apartment. Pulling my keys out of my pocket, I unlocked the door. Quickly I opened it and led her inside.

            My apartment was quite large and open. It was more like a loft but there were full walls separating everything, living with Emmett the privacy was needed. It was modern and streamlined but all of the small things were vintage or had to do with cars, motorcycles, art, music or surfing and of course Emmett had the kitchen completely done custom and to his exact specifications.

            “Would you like a beer?” I asked her as I walked her into the kitchen. I stopped for a moment and hit a button on the keypad on the wall by the living room. We had surround sound in the apartment and I hit play, I needed the music and I knew Bella would appreciate it. Janis Joplin’s “ A Woman Left Lonely” was the first song came on.

            “Sure” She replied. I grabbed a couple beers from the fridge and then I led her to the living room to sit down. She sat down on the couch it was an old saddle leather; she ran her hand over it, feeling the softness of it. I walked over to the window, looking out over the lights of the city. The song changed to Cat Power’s “Dark End of the Street”. I took a long pull from my peer and set it down, turning to look at Bella, she was watching me. A small smile playing on her face, I smiled back.

            “Come here…Dance with me” It really wasn’t a question. I wanted to feel her body against mine. She stood from the couch and set her beer down on the table. She walked over to me and I pulled her close to me. Bella looked up at me, one hand on my chest the other in mine; the only light on was coming from the kitchen casting a soft glow upon us. The raspiness of Chan Marshall’s voice and the beat of the snare drum, the guitar rifts, and the soul of the organ guiding me with Bella against me, the moment was perfect.

            I leaned down and kissed her. Our lips moving and touching softly against each other’s, her hand that was on my chest slid up and snaked around to the nape of my neck. Her fingers tangled into my hair. The kiss was slow and languid. Her tongue came out and licked my bottom lip, my mouth parted and my tongue came out. The moment our tongue touched I felt it, that electric spark, that radiated through my entire body, causing and involuntary groan in my chest. The kiss deepened instantly. When the song ended the kiss broke.

            We just continued to look at one another, while the song “A Song for You” by Ryan Adams-Whisky Town began to play. Bella let out a long content sigh and placed her head down to my chest. As it rested there, I brought my own down and let my lips rest in her hair, placing a kiss occasionally atop her head as we danced in my living room. I wouldn’t normally considered myself a romantic guy, but there was just something about Bella that wanted me to be a better man, to give her all of those things, to be the man I knew she deserved because something told me that she hadn’t always gotten what she deserved and that thought unsettled me. There was something nagging me in the back of my mind and I couldn’t place it, but I didn’t want to focus on that now, I just wanted to focus on her and this moment because she deserved that, she needed that. She needed me and I her, and I wasn’t dumb enough to not recognize that. Fuck I knew it scared the shit out of me, but I also wasn’t dumb enough to let the best fucking thing to ever happen to me go either. As the song ended I looked down at Bella and it was at that moment when it hit me, I was falling for her. And it was at that moment that I knew I was never going to be able to walk away from her, this one crazy woman, with her bike, tattoos, surf board, and fuck hot ways, owned my ass. I was in love with Bella Swan.

            “Edward…” I didn’t let her finish her sentence because I scooped her up into my arms bridal style and carried her off to my bedroom. The music filtered through the room as I sat her down at the foot of my bed, the song changed to “All But One” by Grace Potter and the Nocturnals. I started to undress her, removing her shoes, placing them on the floor, I then let my hands slide up her legs to the button. I took the hem of her top pulling over her body, she lifter her arms and I tossed it to the side, I reached behind her, unclasping her bra and as I slid the straps from her shoulders I placed open mouthed kisses on each of her shoulders and along her collarbone. I moved my hands back to her hips. I lifted her gently pushing her back on the bed, I kneeled between her legs grabbing onto the waistband of leather pants she lifted her hips and I gently pulled them off of her. Bella lay before me completely naked and she was breathtaking.

            “You’re beautiful”, I whispered. I stood for a moment looking at her and swiftly removed my own clothing. I toed off my boots and socks. Her eyes moved across my body as I removed my shirt and pants. There was something erotic about having her watch me undress. Once I finished I crawled back up onto the bed placing myself in between Bella’s legs. Her knees bent and her thighs came up holding me close, our chest’s were both heavy with breath, I could feel her heart pounding. There was no wasting any time tonight, as the song changed to “Since I’ve Been Loving You” by Led Zeppelin, I reached between our bodies; I let my fingers graze her hot center to make sure she was ready for me. She was already wet; I reached for my hard cock and lined up with her wet center. I slowly pushed into her. As I did Bella’s fingernails dug into my back, her legs fell further apart allowing me to push further into her, and her back arched as her head fell back. I pushed as deep as I could, our bodies sliding against one another’s, fuck she felt so good.

            “Fuck baby you feel so good” I pulled almost all the way out of her before I pushed slowly back into her.

            “Edward…UNGGG” She gripped onto me tighter, her thighs squeezing me, her nails scrapping against my skin. It was pure fucking ecstasy.

            Our bodies just pushed and pulled deep and hard against each other’s. I could feel that she was just as close as I was.

            “Baby I am so close…oh…fuck…UHHH” And with that her walls clenched down around my cock milking it, her whole body trembling. It caused my own sudden release, pushing my orgasm to rock through my body.

            “Fuuuck…Bella” Her name came tumbling out of my mouth. I collapsed on top of her.

            After a moment, I rolled off of her and pulled her close. Reaching down I brought the covers up and placed them on top of us. It didn’t take long before the both of us fell into a deep sleep. I knew tomorrow would be a busy day. She told me earlier that Angela and Ben were coming into town and we had work to do on the shop amongst other things. But for now I just wanted to focus on the beautiful woman who was falling asleep in my arms, the woman who I was no doubt falling in love with. 

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University of Eternity Chapter 18 Wave of Transcendence Part 2

Chapter 18

Wave of Transcendence part 2

“Incandescent desire, Unbridled, charging passion. Fussing life, twisting fate and the immortality of time. Rushing stillness in the belly of my sin…” Kathryn Williams

Williams, K. (2010). Filtered Love. Baltimore: Publish America.

EPOV

            I was lost in her, the scent of her satisfied arousal, the lingering passion that lay between our naked bodies. It was like I had tunnel vision, but it wasn’t just my vision, it was all of my senses. My Bella consumed me; it was intense to the point where it was almost unbearable. But bearing this was all I wanted, it wasn’t enough I needed more, it was as if my entire being depended on her. It went beyond gravity, beyond the need to touch her, and feel her; it was all consuming, euphoric, as if she was my own personal brand of heroin, as if God had created her to be specifically for me, no one else. I was the Adam to her Eve, but at the same time I was her apple or rather she was mine. And I needed to taste her fruit or I would parish, my body would burst into flames and become nothing more than a pile of ash.

            Is this how it felt for the rest of my family, is this what having a love day meant? How was this handled, it’s not as if I can touch her and feel her with the power my body wanted to yield.

            I began to panic. I had to leave; I needed to leave before I hurt her.

            “Jasper!!!...I need your help…JASPER!!!” I let out my plea, loud enough that Jasper would hear, but Bella would not. HE quickly responded to me in his mind. Sending a wave of calm over me, just long enough for me to dress and get out of the bedroom.

            I am here Edward, outside on the deck. Jesus Christ man, I can fucking feel everything…we need to tone this shit down or I ma going to go and jump Ali.

            I made my way towards the deck, as I opened the door to the outside I took a deep breath of the forest air. “Jas what do I do…I don’t know what to do…I can’t hurt her…but this is so intense all I want to do is touch her” My voice was raspy and wary.

            “I know bro…Ali isn’t here so I don’t know what she sees or if she even sees anything, she went to the store…for god only knows what” He paused taking in my appearance, he too took a deep breath. I know he could feel everything that I was. It made me feel guilty, but I couldn’t help it. “Well the good thing is Bella won’t be awake for a few more hours…we can make sure that she is occupied for the time being…but right now I think we should run, maybe hunt…but something to expel some of the energy”

            “Yeah okay…but who is here…are Em and Rose around to be with Bella when she wakes up?” Then my beastly brother busting in answered my question; he strolled out on to the deck.

            “Who’s talking about me now?” Em asked as he came strutting through the door. “Oh fuck boss you look like shit!”

            “Fuck Em…I’m getting worked here”

            “No worries bro…We got you…I think you should get out of here for a while…I will take care of Bella boss…you know we love her…she is our sis” Emmett patted me on the back and I just sighed heavily and nodded. I really did not want to leave Bella, but I knew that it was the best thing at the moment. With that I agreed and Jasper and I set off into the woods.

BPOV

            I woke up to the sound of pounding on Edward’s bedroom door and Emmett yelling.

            “Wakey Wakey little wahine time to bust you out da hale…you better get dressed or I am busting in there to drag your ass out little sis” UGH…Emmett where is Edward? Why in the hell am I waking up alone in bed naked? This sure as shit is not right as far as I am concerned. I especially don’t need to be waking up to Emmett’s loud ass. I mean I dig the due but really?

            “OKAY OKAY…KEEP YOUR SHORTS ON BOSS…I WILL BE OUT WIKI WIKI” I shouted back to Emmett.

            “Sounds good little wahine…Rosie and I will be downstairs waiting for you in the kitchen” He said back and he plowed back down the stairs. Jesus he sounded like a freight train when he walked. I just shook my head and rolled my eyes ass I dragged my tired ass out of the bed. I really wanted to know where Edward was at, I know that he would not have left me unless it was important. I hope that everything was okay.

            Eventually I was showered and dressed ready to face Emmett and Rosalie. I made my way down to the kitchen and what I found was something that shocked the living shit out of me. There in front of me was Emmet in an apron standing at the counter with Rosalie at his side, who in all reality looked like she was about to kill him (if that were even possible). In what looked like an attempt to cook something.

            “Emmett McCarty Cullen I swear to Fucking Pele I am going to cut off your balls and throw them into Mouna Fucking Kea… If you wave that god damn knife…no more licking hon…” Rose didn’t finish her sentence when she saw me standing there looking at her quizzically.

            “WOW…really…you sure you don’t want to finish that sentence Rosalie?”

            “Yeah Rosie…what were you gonna say baby?” Emmett asked.

            “Oh for fucks sake…I am pau…Emmett you can finish this on your own…and as for you Bella…well let’s just say I will tell you about that some other time…I am sure Edward may want in on that” She said as she winked at me and walked out of the kitchen. “I will be back in a few…I am going to go clean myself up…this food thing is well…it’s disgusting…call me when you are ready to leave” I just shook my head at her, vampires really didn’t like food.

            “So Emmett…would you like some help with that?” I asked as I walked the rest of the way into the kitchen. “And where is Edward...is everything alright…he didn’t leave a note or anything…that isn’t like him” I walked over to the counter to inspect the damage Emmett was inflicting on the kitchen and its contents.

            “Oh yeah…um no worries little sis…he is just dealing with his first looove day…he will be okay…he just wasn’t really sure how to deal with the intensity of it and well …um…well he didn’t want to hurt you or anything ya know with …um his uh…ya know super peen”

            “WHAT!” I coughed out. “EMMMET!...are you fucking kidding me?”

            “Listen little wahine…seriously…Edward has never had a love day and well they are really intense and the vampire need to well have sex or well make-love to their make is crazy wicked intense…and well our strength is insane and Edward was starting to have a love day…and he loves you sis…you’re his mate…for realz…you’re it for him and it would destroy Edward if he ever hurt you…so he and Jasper took off for the day so Edward could get a grasp on it…Burn off some energy…No worries though…he will be back sometime tonight when he get a grip…And he will…Edward has more control than any of us…I swear wahine he probably has more control than Carlilse and he like works with blood and shit on the regular…ya Doctor and all…but don’t worry he will be back…He has mad love for you sis…like da kine mad love…never seen anything like it…none of us have…seriously…like you’re a human and he is a vampire…I still don’t get it…but the dude is like choke crazy…mad got his swirl on for you in a desperate surf stoked da kine way” Emmett just smiled and put his arm around my shoulders pulling me into a half hug. He really was becoming more and more like a brother to me.

            “Okay Emmett…I just worry about him…you know I love him too…I just…I don’t know…this has just been all so much so fast…sometimes I feel overwhelmed about it all…and when he isn’t around I feel like I am drowning…. he is kind of like my anchor...I don’t know it’s hard to explain” I just looked up at him.

            “No worries little sis…I got you…trust” He just beamed back at me.

            “So what is for breakfast?” I asked somewhat skeptically.

            Breakfast was an adventure to say the least but, whatever, eventually I ate and helped Emmett clean up the tidal wave of a mess.

            “Thanks little sis…sorry about the mess…not really used to all this human stuff…haven’t really had it around since Caleb ya know and well he was a guy…pretty easy…he used to just sneak off to the shrimp truck…that is if Esme would let him get away with it” Emmett put the last dish in the dishwasher and we headed out toward the garage where Rosalie apparently was.

            “So was every body close to Caleb…I mean what is the whole story there…I mean I know that he was Jacob’s brother or whatever…but it’s not like Jake was ever old enough to know him…I still don’t get why Jake would be pissed about someone he never met… I mean I get it…he is family…but at the same time…he never knew him…but…well fuck…Jake is a stubborn ass and there is more there to it at the moment with him” I kept thinking about my fucking hand…asshole.

            We walked out to the garage and Rosalie was working on her Charger, doing what exactly beats the hell out of me, but that was her thing.

            “Well little wahine…the thing is the tribe is one big family and well you know that…Caleb was special to them…Billy is like the head council leader…he is the son of Ephrim Black…and well Ephrim is the one who made the treaty with us when we first moved here, and he is the one who is the first to become the shape shifters…he was the oldest of them…he was close to 200 years old Bella…you see shape shifter stop aging when they phase…stopping around 25 or something…well that isn’t entirely true I guess…they age…but its very very slowly almost as if they stop…and they don’t start aging again until they make the choice to stop phasing” Wow this was all crazy more and more information. “Well I am pretty sure that is how it goes anyway…you would have to ask them…But you see…Caleb was Billy’s son, and like I said Billy was the head council leader…basically he was the ‘top dog’” Emmmett said with a snicker.

            “Funny Emmett…real smooth …ass” What a dork.

            “Anyway…so yeah was kind of like the chief yeah…so they expected Caleb to follow in his footsteps…but Caleb didn’t want that…Caleb wanted to go pro…Caleb wanted to surf…He thought that he could do more for the tribe by being who was rather than what he was…he wanted to follow his heart…his dreams…not his father…and not what some legend dictated him to do…it wasn’t what Caleb wanted…but don’t get me wrong…Caleb hurt…because he believed…he loved the land, his tribe, his family. He respected it all. He was into all that…I mean he was loco about the earth and all that jazz…he always had his crazy rituals and things he did…he would even say thank you everytime he caught a wave…guy was on a level…but that was Caleb…bruddah had choke respect…he was da kine through and through…there wasn’t a part of him that didn’t respect” WOW! It was kind of strange because as much as I knew Jake it didn’t seem that these two could of possibly come from the same two parents. But some how they did. “But, Caleb was a friend…well more like brother, to us all, and well Esme and Carlisle treated him like another son…even though he was human…he was part of this family…just like you little sis…you’re part of this family too…even though your heart beats…we still love ya”

            “Oh gee thanks Em”

            “Oh no worries little sis” He just like in his Emmett style threw his arm around me. “Rosie babe you ready to get your swirl on…we have to babysit little sis here today”

            “Emmett…I swear…if I wasn’t already dead you would be the death of me…and since when does Bella need to be baby sat…I thought we were shredding…and from what I heard…you got worked by her”, Rosalie said as she stood up from under her car.

            “Huh who got worked…there was a rock…I don’t get worked by any one but you baby” Emmett replied with a wink and sassy slap to Rose’s ass.

            “Jesus Emmett…watch yourself…remember what I said earlier” Then the thought came back to me from earlier in the kitchen, something about honey. Oh fuck I don’t think I want to know.

            “Okay you two…knock it off or you are going in time out”, I said with a mockingly stern tone.

            “Yes Mom” Emmett replied jokingly “Okay enough bullshit…let’s go get our swirl on…Jeeps ready…we just need to grab our shit and our boards…I figure we have a good few hours before Eddie boy gets back…god only knows what he is doing” He said smiling at me while wagging his eyebrows.

            “Oh god I don’t even want to know” Rose said quickly.

            “What the hell is that supposed to mean?” I asked. I was worried and curious at the same time.

            “Oh nothing…don’t worry about it…I just don’t want to know what it is he is doing to relieve all of the um well ya know…oh fuck never mind” Rose stammered off.

            We spent the afternoon surfing at the beach. Come to find out Rose was really a good surfer. She was definitely better than Emmett; she had a really good cutback. She was one beautiful vampire and had killer moves on the waves, who knew. Around five in the afternoon we made our way back to their house. I had called Charlie to see if he had wanted to have dinner, but he said that he had been called in for some emergency and wasn’t going to be home and that he was going to be over helping the next county out and would be late, so he would just stay with Sue. I figured that I would just as well stay with Edward and we made plans to meet tomorrow night for dinner at the diner again to catch up. So much for spending the summer with my father, but to be honest Charlie and I weren’t exactly the father and daughter of the year and what we had worked for us.

            When we go back to the house I went up to Edward’s room and went to go take a shower. I first stopped in the kitchen to get some water. I ran into Esme.

            “Hello my dear…how was your day?”

            “Oh it was a lot of fun…I didn’t realize how good of a surfer Rose is” I said to Esme.

            “Oh yes, she really is…we all surf…but she is the best out of us girls…so I wanted to ask you…how are you doing…I mean…how are things with all of this?” She asked waving her hand in a grand gesture.

            “Well…surprisingly I think I am doing ok…you have all been so great and so welcoming…and well definitely not what I expected which has been awesome…and well…Edward…he is…well…kind of like well my rock…and I have to say that I am pretty stoked about Emmett…kind of like a loud big brother” I said laughing. “Um uh Esme…can I ask you something?”

            “Of course Bella…you know you can ask me anything…anything at all” She led me over to the table to sit.

            “Well it’s about Edward…you obviously know that he left today…well uh because of the whole love day thing or whatever…shit I fell stupid….oh sorry…I feel stupid saying that” she just waved off my cursing.

            “Bella…you know that Edward loves you don’t you…that he would do anything for you right?” I just nodded in understanding. “Well today that was just part of that…he did anything for you…and that anything was to keep you safe…and he trusts your love and he trusts that you trust him to do the right thing especially when he knows he isn’t quite sure what to do…and well today was one of those times…he just wanted to keep you safe Bella…he loves you…more than anything…more than his own life…so he left to make sure that he would jeopardize that” I looked at her for a moment, I still couldn’t get why he didn’t leave me a note or tell me. I mean I understood, but why wouldn’t he just say ‘hey be back later…love you’. “I really have never seen anything like it before…you and him. I have never seen a love so fierce and intense, and so instant. It is like it is electricity…it is startling…it’s magnificent” I swear if she could have there would have been a tear with her smile. “Really Bella you have nothing to worry about and I just want to thank you…thank you for making Edward happy and thank you for making this family whole again…now I will let you get back to what you were doing dear…you have a good night and if you need anything…you know you can always come an talk to me…anytime” with that she stood up and kissed me lightly on the cheek and left the room.

            I sat there for a moment; I took a sip of my water just taking in the events of the day. Everything Emmett and Esme had told me. Everything about Caleb, the tribe, and especially everything about why Edward had left; I knew he wouldn’t leave me, but him leaving without saying goodbye this morning still did something to me even though I knew he was coming back. As I sat there thinking, in the quiet room, twilight setting out in front of me, I felt it. The air charged, the hair on my neck standing, my heart rate speeding and then I felt it. The cool honey breathe on my skin, the cool lips on the apex of my neck and shoulder, instantly causing my head to fall to the side and a wanting moan to escape from my throat.

            “My Bella…”The deep husky whisper…that deep velvet. It was all I needed, his lips, his voice, his touch, him. He was all I needed. He was all I would ever need. He was all I would ever want. Always.

            “Take me upstairs Edward…Please” And with that Edward lifted me from the chair and carried me up the stairs. “The shower…I need…um..uh..” I could get the words out as he continued his assault on my neck. He kicked open his door to the bedroom making his way across the room to the bathroom. He stopped by the door and reached over to turn on the stereo. “Please Forgive Me” by David Gray came on. He walked to the shower turning it on. He turned me around so I was now straddling his waste and our mouths crashed to each other’s instantly liked heated magnets. Once the water was heated he stepped into the shower, our clothes were still on. Neither one of us caring.

            Our kiss broke. “Fuck baby I need you…so much”

            “I know…I know” Was all I could get out before our mouths found were on each other’s again. He had me backed into the corner of the shower, his hand was gripped under my thigh pulling me toward him to get closer as I ripped his t-shirt off and reached to undo his belt buckle. The song changed once he got my clothes off of me to “I’ve been loving you too long” (To Stop Now) by Cat Power “Make love to me Edward” He washed my body and picked me up and carried my out of the shower where he dried my body, they way he washed my body to that song almost did me in. It was one of the most sensual experiences of my life.

            The song changed again into “Sail Away” by David Gray Edward picked me back up and carried me to the bed. Our naked bodies lay there together; as we looked into each other’s eyes intensely Edward slowly began to move over my body. He started to place kisses along my jaw and down my neck moving down my body, licking and tasting me.

            “I love you Bella” For the entire song that was what he did, he tasted every inch of my body, all of me, not missing an inch. He just relished in me, worshiping me. I was in ecstasy. I let my hands roam over him as he moved over me, feeling the smooth hard planes of his back, letting my fingers grip and scratch through his hair. I pulled him up to kiss him.

            “Kiss me Edward” And with my demand he crawled up my body, I could feel his hardness against my thigh when our lips met, our tongues pushing against one another. The song morphed into “This Years Love” by David Gray and without any resistance Edward entered me. And in no urgency he made love to me deeply and slowly. We made love through the night because all I remember is the sound of Damien Rice’s “9 Crimes” to the breaking dawn as I fell asleep in the arms of Edward to him stroking my back and stroking my thigh that was draped over his stomach. And all I could think was back to the lyrics of David Gray’s song, and I knew that our love would last when he held me like he did.

            

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Chapter 5

Sugar

  

EPOV

            I just stood there in complete awe of what I had just witnessed. But then the lights went down and a voice came over the PA system.

            “This next song is for Edward…Enjoy you lucky bastard!”

            I turned to look at Jasper and he just shrugged. The lights started flashing and I saw that Alice was standing at the front of the stage motioning for us to come join her. As we walked up to meet her the music started to play. It started out slow and Bella was sitting in a chair with the spot light on. And then like a jolt right to my dick, the song broke out into “Sugar” by Kid Rock. And Bella went to work. She kicked the chair away and started dancing. She strutted across the stage, shaking her body and to my complete and utter surprise after dancing on the poll she came up and started dancing in front of me. I just sat there in my chair at the stage shaking my head in complete disbelief that Bella would get up on stage by herself and dance for me in front of everyone to see. Her hot ass was clad in tight leather pants, and some silver sequenced tank top thing and black leather fuck me heals with silver buckles, the kind of reminded me of my motorcycle boots that I had on. Jesuschristonastripperpole those damn pants with her fucking heals made her legs look fucking endless and her ass…don’t even get me started on how great her ass looked.

            I was doing everything I could to keep the drool from dripping down my chin. When the song came to an end Bella strutted down the stairs and came over and plopped her leather-clad ass right in my lap. She leaned in to whisper in my ear.

            “You gonna give me some sugar tonight boss?” I just pulled my head away from hers so I could look her in the eyes. I grabbed her legs so she was straddling me; leaning back into her, I tilted her head to the side to whisper back into her ear.

            “Baby that was fuckhot and I will give you anything your sexy ass wants…I am all yours” And with my words I placed an open mouthed kiss under her ear. “But after that little display I think I need a shot” Her head tilted back in laughter. She climbed off my lap and walked back to the bar, after a minute she returned with a bottle of Jack Daniels single barrel and four shot glasses.

            “So who is ready to party?” She asked the three of us.

            “You know I am ready darling…Baby you ready?” Jasper said and turned to face Alice looking for her confirmation.

            “Oh you know I’m ready baby” Alice said to Jasper.

            “Alright lets do this” I said and we all four stood up. Bella poured us shots and handed them out.

            “To the unexpected” Bella said in a toast. And with that we took our shots, of course Bella did that fuckhot shot glass roll across her lips; I just shook my head thinking to myself this was going to be another kickass night.

            After we did another shot, I excused myself to step outside and smoke. Jasper and Alice seemed caught up in a little bubble of their own, but as I stood up to go outside Bella said she would join me.

BPOV

            I could hardly believe it when Jas, Ali and I walked into the bar and I realized that Edward was up on stage playing I about lost all coherent thought. I was a fucking sucker for musicians, and now that I knew that Edward was a musician and he was fuckhot and a master in the boudoir I was toastercaked. This man had me hook fucking line and sinker. Alice and Jasper both knew it too. This man was going to be the end-all beat-all for me. I had a moment of panic and could barely speak when Edward came to talk to us. He walked off to go grab his beer and Jas and Ali started in on me.

            “Damn Hua you are so done for it’s not even funny” Alice said the moment he left.

            “Bells all I have to say is be careful…don’t get me wrong I like this guy and his brother is pretty badass…but we don’t really know them yet…so be careful…I don’t want a repeat of James” Jasper was serious, always the protective brother. I understood where he was coming from and to be honest the intensity of feelings which I was already having towards Edward scared the shit out of me. But I wasn’t going to let my past with James dictate what happened between Edward and I.

            “I know Jas…but I don’t know…there is just something different about him. I don’t know what it is, but as scared as I am of my feelings…I am not afraid of him…There is just something about him…I know he won’t hurt me intentionally”

            “Bella girl…I love you and I am here for you no matter what” Alice chimed in. “She is right Jas…he won’t hurt her…besides he isn’t James…I have a feeling about him” Okay there it was, Alice was having one of her ‘feelings’ again. Before our conversation could continue Edward was back from the bar.

            He went on to play and dedicated a song to me; Alice just gave me the look. I knew what that meant, it was time to play, so after Edward finished we all left and went to a club down the street, friends of ours owned it. Zafrina and Senna, they were two sisters from Brazil that we had met years ago on a surfing trip. They were all things Brazil and decided to move to Seattle a few years back, it was quite the happy coincidence. They also owned a string of nightclubs back in Brazil, but they had always wanted to move to the U.S. Why is beyond us, because they were one hundred percent Brazil, but hey to each their own. However, they had a friend that lived here in Seattle that helped them out. It was nice having a Seattle family, and now it was just going to grow.

            When we got to the club Alice and I took off for the back, knowing that Zafrina and Senna would be there back in the office. So of course Alice and I devised a plan and Zaf and Sen were all for it, Sen got on her walky-talky and let the DJ know what we were up to. Thankfully Alice and I were dressed for the occasion. Both of us looking sexy as hell, her in her cheetah corset and me in my skintight black leather pants, we were ready to dance.

            “Well my little sexies are you ready to shake your pretty little ass’s for your men?” Sen asked, smiling her wicked conspiratorial smile at us.

            “Oh you know I am…Jasy is going to love this…he always does…and well I think Cullen is going to flip his dick when he see Bella here…I don’t think he really knows what he has gotten himself into…and if I know my Jasy he isn’t going to give a damn thing away about our little Hua here” Alice said with her much to enthusiastic tone of voice.

            “Oh for fucks sake…am I really that bad?”

            “YES!” All three of them shouted in unison.

            “What the fuck…seriously that hurts…you are all Hua’s of the mahu variety and it pains me to call you my sistas…for realz…OUCH bitches…OUCH…but whatever…lets get this shit rolling…we are supposed to be taking a piss rember AL”

            “Yeah Yeah…Okay Hua…lets go get our swirl on…Wiki Wiki Sen…Much love Zaf”

            “Much love you two…we will be watching…huas”, Zafrina said and she turned to go back to her work for the moment.

            “I will let Peter know to start in 2 min…you Hua’s better hurry” Sen said to us, pushing us out of her office “Much love…Hasta Aloha”

            “HASTA ALOHA” Al and I both shouted back to the both of them.

            Alice and I went on stage and we both danced to “For Your Entertainment” by Adam Lambert, “Porn Star Dancing” by My Darkest Days and “No, No, No” by Dawn Penn. But what really got Edward going was when I danced for him by myself to “Sugar” by Kid Rock. I don’t know what it is with guy and Kid Rock or just southern rock in general but he sure does like it. Which gives me an idea for later.

            The night went on without incident, we partied like rock stars, we drank our shots of whiskey, smoked, and danced to songs like Muse’s “Uprising”, “Buttons” by the Pussycat Dolls, “Boys Wanna be Her” by Peaches, “Cowboy” by Kid Rock and we even had Peter play “Gravel Road” by Clutch for Edward just so he wouldn’t lose his frucking mind, but we just liked hanging out laughing, and just having fun, it was a great night. Jasper and Edward were getting along great, as if they had known each other their whole lives.

            “Hey I think we should call and see if Rose and Emmett want to join us…what do you all think…I bet Rose is losing her nut being all alone right now…you know how she gets all nervous and shit on a first date” I knew she was probably biting off her fifty dollar manicure at this point.

            “Oh Shit! I bet her fifty dollar mianicure is toaster caked!” Alice slurred. I just laughed after having thought the exact same thing.

            “Sure…I’ll give my brother a call”, Edward said.

            “NOOO” Ali and I shouted at the same time.

            “Why”, He asked.

            “Oooh no no no…because if Rose thinks it’s Emmett’s idea she will be pissed…and I mean pissed…trust us…let us call Rose and her bring up the idea…and while we do that…just send Emmett a text and let him know the plan…and make sure you tell him not to bring it up or he might lose his balls or something…Rose is lethal like that…although from the looks of it Emmett likes it rough”, we all started laughing. With that Jasper poured a shot for everyone.

            “To liking it rough”, Jasper toasted. I just looked at Edward and slid the shot across my lips. Hmm.

            “Ali call Rose…I’ll be right back”, I said. I had another song I needed to dance to and I was just buzzed enough to drink to it. Edward gave me a confusing look when I excused myself. He turned to look at Jasper, but per usual he gave no hint to Edward and just smiled shrugging his shoulders.

            I went to the back office again to talk to Zaf and Sen to set it up again. I also needed to change. I didn’t have the right look for this dance. Luckily Zafrina had what I needed. So she helped me out with my ensemble and Sen called up Peter to help me with my song and the prop that I would need on stage. Once everything was set, I made my way towards the stage.

            I had them turn the lights completely off and once again I had Peter place a chair in the center of the stage. This time however, I dressed myself slightly different. I took off my leather pants and put on a pair of leather bikini bottoms, a black leather corset, and I changed my shoes, to a pair of boots that went all the way up to my mid thighs that were black leather. I also put on a carnivale mask, and black slid gloves that went all the way up to my arms. I kept my hair down, made sure my eye makeup was dark to match the mask, and put on deep red lipstick. To be honest I have no idea what possessed me to do this, but there was just something about Edward that allowed me to let go of all my inhibitions, something that allowed me to be completely comfortable, something that told me I was safe with him; that he would protect me. Because in all truth I would never dress like this in public unless it was Halloween, but that was part of the reason I was also wearing the mask, in hopes that I may not be recognized as easily. But I also knew, that Zaf and Sen, would make sure that their security was all over the guests about pictures and everything, so I knew I would be okay too. Otherwise there is now way I would do this in just some random club, I am not that careless.  I mean hello, I own a multimillion-dollar company, but I also like to be me and have fun too.

            “You ready chaquita?”, Zaf asked me as I stood backstage ready to walk out.

            “Yep…I can’ believe I am taking it this far…what the hell has gotten in to me Zaf?”, I asked her.           

            “I don’t know Hua…but if I had to guess I would say it would be ‘the you know what’”, She said giving me the ‘you know what look’.

            “Oh fuck don’t say that…it can’t be that…I don’t know if I am ready for that” And I was serious, I was feeling a lot of things for Edward and safe was definitely one of them, but the big ‘you know what’ was well, I don’t know if I was ready for that, and even if I was ready for that; for fucks sake it had only been like two fucking days. Really, really what the mother fucking fuck batman, that shit doesn’t happen after like two fucking days. Does it? I snapped myself out of my mind fuckery and went out on stage.

            I took my seat on the chair and the music began. The loud beat started to thud, and the lights started to come on, and I let my body start to move my legs opening and closing to the beat and first, then having my pelvis thrust to the beat as I supported myself on the seat of the chair. Eventually I pushed off the chair I crawled along the floor making my way towards Edward, so I could dance in front of him and to use the pole that was in front of him. I let my body feel the music, fluidly jerking to the beat of the song. The sound of “Closer” by Nine Inch Nails fueled the raging lust that was coursing through my body, pushing me to dance harder for Edward, I had never wanted to do something so erotic for some one before, I mean what we had done with the bands and tequila the night before was pretty fun, but this was me completely giving, voyeuristic in nature. This was raw. And it was turning me the fuck on, feeling his eyes on me. The song finally ended and I sauntered off the stage to the back. Zaf and Sen helped me change out of the outfit and I put my clothes back on. I went back out to where everyone was sitting. By the time I got out there I noticed that Rose and Emmett had arrived. I greeted them. They teased me about my little sexscapade pole dance. But it wasn’t there opinion that I was interested in. I could feel Edward’s eyes boring into me the entire time. And with the beat of Lady Gaga’s “Teeth” and then morphing into “Temperature” by Sean Paul in the background and it was playing right to my girly bits. I wanted him to take a bite of my bad girl meat and my temperature was definitely right. Finally Emmett shut up and I turned to Edward.            

            “Cigarette” That was all he said to me.

            He stood up and walked right past me to make his way outside, he didn’t even hold the door, just walked right outside. He walked so fast that I could barely keep up with him. When I reached the outside I wasn’t really sure where he went. I turned towards the parking lot to see where he went, I was suddenly pulled to the side and shoved against the wall where there is an alley used for a service entrance.

            “Shhhh….Do you know what that little dance of yours did to me?” Fuck that scared that shit out of me. My heart was beating so fast, but before I could calm myself down and fully register that it was Edward that grabbed me his lips came crushing down onto mine. He grabbed both of my wrists and pinned them above my head with one of his hands, while his other hand held my face just under the chin. The kiss was hard and aggressive. It took me a moment to register what was happening before I began to kiss him back, the brick of the building was digging into my wrists and back. His tongue was forceful against mine, and I fought back with my own fervor. My hands were trying to break free but he just grunted into the kiss and his hips ground into mine causing my to hitch my legs around his waist.

            His free hand release my jaw grazing down my breasts and torso, only to grab my hip and snake around to my ass. He pulled away suddenly, his forehead came down and rested against mine, his breathing was heavy as was mine. “Fuck Bella, do you have any idea what you do to me…do you?...FUCK…can you feel that?!!!” He was mad, it took me somewhat by surprise. I wasn’t sure why he was mad, but he was. “Answer me…can you feel that…do you see and feel what you fucking do to me BELLA?” Uh oh…I think I am in trouble.

            “Yes…I can feel it…and no I don’t know…what do I do to you Edward…tell me” And with my statement rather more than a question. I needed to know. He raised his head from mine to look me into my eyes.

            “You do things to me Bella…you make me…fuck Bell…you make me…feel things…things that …that I have no fucking right to… no fucking right to at all…none…do you fucking understand that? Do you?” His eyes were so intense and dark.

            “Yes” I did understand because I felt the same way. I had been through so much and sometimes I didn’t feel like I had a right to how I felt, that maybe I should just be alone, that I have abused the system in some way, but I couldn’t help it.

            “Do you?...I don’t think that you do Bella…I don’t think that you understand…no in fact I no you don’t fucking understand…FUCK!” I just searched his eyes, there was so much flashing across them. The memories, even though I didn’t know what they were, I could see that they were there, or rather who or what was there. I don’t even know if I wanted to know, but I had a feeling that I was going to find out. Maybe not tonight, but I was going to find out.

            “Edward…take me home…make me understand…let me feel you…I want you inside of me…now” His eyes flashed black and then went deep jade. I could hear the song from the club thumping from inside “Is this Real” by Lisa Hall. “Please Edward…I know…I need you too” He let his hand release my wrists and I brought them down and caressed his face in one hand, letting the other come down on his chest over his heart. Our eyes never breaking contact, his now free hand came around me to support my body. Tentatively I leaned in closer to him and gently placed my lips to his, not yet closing my eyes. He let out a shaky sigh when our lips touched. I pulled back slightly “Edward Please…make love to me” And with my words, his arm slid up my back to my neck, his eyes closed and he pulled my mouth to his and he kissed me fully. Our mouths parting and our tongues sliding against one another’s deeply. We both moaned at the involuntary grinding of my hips. Our kissing broke and his hand moved to my hips and he slowly lowered me down to let my feet touch the ground.

            “I am taking you home now” And that is all he said to me, before taking my hand and leading me to the curb to hail a cab. We never went back inside to say goodbye. He never said another word to me. Just took my hand and led me to the curb to catch a cab and I never spoke a word to him. I just looked into his eyes knowing everything that I needed to for the moment, the rest would come in time, and that was exactly what I had, was time. Because that was all I had as I fell. As I stood there on the curb waiting for the cab hand-in-hand gazing into those deep green eyes; falling for Edward Cullen.

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