University of Eternity Chapter 13

Chapter 13

Wave of Ecstasy

 

 

 

 

BPOV



    I found myself back in Edward's room upon waking; his arms were wrapped around my body. I didn't open my eyes immediately wanting to lay there in the comfort of him. I was so tired from being on an information overload. It was dark outside when I finally decided to open my eyes, music filled the room, and it was low and soothing. I wasn't sure what to do, but I was glad that Edward was still with me and didn't leave me while I was sleeping. I wasn't sure how to proceed, but after what he and his family told me, I knew that I was in a safe place and that allowed me to relax in the intensity of the situation. I shifted my body so I could face Edward I needed to see his face, I wanted to look into his deep golden eyes, the eyes that I could get lost in, eyes which held so much knowledge of the world, and the eyes that radiated love and need.

    "Hi" He was looking at me with so much feeling, there was a sense of understanding in his look, but there was also curiosity and wonder. He was waiting for me, ready to explain anything and everything.

    "Hi" He said back, I would never tire of hearing that heavy deep velvet tone that his voice carried. "How are you feeling?" That was a loaded question. I wasn't really sure how I was feeling; there was just so much, it almost made me tired all over again having to think about that.

    "Umm…I'm okay" I didn't really know what to say, so of course I went with the safe vague answer. I slide my arm up and laid it on his chest letting my fingers dance across his collarbone. He bent down and placed a kiss on top of my hair, breathing in my scent.

    "What time is it?" It was dark out and I just realized that I never talked to Charlie; I only left a note saying I was meeting Jake.

    "It's late…almost 2AM" Oh shit, Charlie is going to be pissed.

    "Shit!...Charlie!" Fuck what was I was going to say, I don't really know if that was going to piss him off that I wasn't home yet. We never really talked about shit like that; hell we never really talked about anything. I shot up and started to pull myself out of bed.

    "Shh…don't worry…Alice called Charlie…she told him that you left the beach and that you went to Port Angeles…and that you were in a coffee shop and met Alice and that you got to talking and decided to hang out with her…She told him that you came back here and fell asleep watching a movie with her…in fact I think Charlie is glad that you are hanging out with a girl" He let out a small chuckle.

    "Oh…okay…damn…What did Charlie say to her?" I relaxed at the information.

    "Yeah I think Charlie was charmed by the little pixie…He told her to let you know that he was still at work and he had to work tomorrow…well today again and that he was taking Sue out for dinner after work and if you wanted to join them give him a call in the morning" Well that is good I guess. I should probably have dinner with them tomorrow, make my presents known.

    "Alright…that's good I guess" He sure does spend a lot of time with her; I don't know why they still live separately. But then again there isn't much that I understand about Charlie I don't really know him anymore. "I'm just glad that he isn't worried about me not being there" I scooted myself up so I was face to face with Edward. I looked deep into his eyes "Thank you and tell Alice too" I knew he could send her a message with their form of communicating.

    "No worries baby" Damn his voice got low and husky, I couldn't resist I bent down and kissed him on the mouth, moving my arm up to wrap my fingers into his messy bronze locks. His mouth met mine and the kiss was deep and soft. I could kiss him forever are tongues danced against each other, his arms wrapped around me pulling him on top of him, his body was so solid and cool underneath mine. I slowly broke the kiss.

    "Umm…did you take my jeans off?" He looked at me with clouded eyes full of lust and let out a little laugh.

    "Yes" He answered will placing kisses on my cheek, along my jaw, trailing down my neck. "I thought you would be more comfortable when you were sleeping" His tone was breathy and heavy, like he had more important things to do than answer my question about my clothing. "Bella…You…taste…so good" Oh fuck his mouth was making my girlie bits start to tingle.

    "Is that so?" A small moan escaped when he let his tongue trail my neck up to my earlobe. One of his hands was moving down my back past my ass and over the back of my thigh, pulling my leg to cause them to straddle him. I pushed myself up from his chest to sit up, I quirked my eyebrow at him and reached down to the hem of my shirt slowly pulling it up my body and over my head. "Well…since I don't need pants…I guess I don't need a shirt either…" He sat up meeting his body with mine. His hands made their way up from my thighs, along the sides of my body to reach around to my back, gripping my shoulders and pulling me away. I let my weight rest against his strong arms, while he left a trail of kisses along my collarbone making his way down between my breasts. He broke his mouth away from my body and looked at my bare skin, only to look into my eyes that were now glazed over and burning with need.

    "You're so beautiful..." He paused letting his words settle into my mind, no one had ever made me feel as beautiful as he did. "Damn…you don't know how I need you" Ung...he was turning me into putty, ready to be molded in his hands. "Fuck…I love you…I will always love you…I...I just…" He trailed off only to take my right breast into his mouth, letting his tongue circle my now erect nipple; his lips slowly let it slip out between them. "I just want to feel you, always…to just be inside you…Fuuuuck" His words were heavy as he let out a deep breath only to inhale deeply against my body between my breast before he repeated his actions on my left breast.

    "Uhhh…ohhh...fuuuck…Edward…I want you inside of me" The words just fell out of my mouth between my heavy panting. The music in the background floated into my mind, the heavy base setting the tone for our bodies. Lisa Hall's electronic voice singing "Is this Real?" filled the air. The lyrics were playing directly into the moment; like the song came on because it was reading my mind.

    "I want you deep and slow baby" Jesusfuckingshitonastickbatman This man was going to kill me with his words they were liquid sex rolling off his tongue. "I want to be deep inside of you…touching…taking…burning inside your heat…I want to make you cum…I want you to cum around my cock…when I am buried deep in you" His words were like an erotic spell, hypnotizing my body. Without any effort he had moved our bodies so he was now lying on top of me, and in rhythm with the song he pushed his hard length into my hot slick core. His eyes never left mine as he pumped himself deep and slow, joining the two of us in ecstasy.

    "Uhhh….don't stop…don't ever stop" I let out in breathy pants. My legs hooked around his waist given him access to push deeper inside of me. One arm gripped around his side and the other around his neck. Our mouths were only inches away from each other. Our eyes dead locked, his cool sweet breath broke upon mine, as I gave back hot desperate breaths back to him letting a piece of my soul escape into him with every heavy pant that left my body.

    "Never...Baby…never" He answered back with each deep thrust. "I want to see your eyes when I make your cum" Fuck me! I was lost in him, forever. My belly started to tighten, my skin started to tingle beginning at my toes traveling through the rest of my body, up my legs, over my belly, working its way up my chest and neck making my cheeks vibrate, and all the way to my fingertips. I could feel the heat of passion coursing through my veins. I was on the edge, ready for the final push and with one last slow deep push I fell into ecstasy.

    "Cum with me Edward...now" And with one final push his body exploded inside of mine, his eyes flashed dark into mine. I could feel his dick pulsing inside of me against the intense contractions of my own orgasm. Fuck that was the most intense orgasm I had ever had, my body was humming as it started to come down from our release.

    "God you're stunning…I love you so much" His words heavy with his own release, before he crashed his mouth against mine, showing me with lips and tongue just how much he loved me, and I did not hesitate to show him back. I was his forever.

    We just laid there; he was still inside of me, breathing heavily against each other. That was so fucking intense; I don't think either of us could handle the separation of our bodies yet. I don't know how much time passed before he finally pulled himself out of me, only to pull me to his chest wrapping his arms around me, I could feel his fingers stroking my hair and rubbing tiny shapes against the sensitive skin of my back. My body was heavy and languid and just melted on top of him feeling my heart beat against my chest. My eyes were heavy and I could feel sleep taking me over once more. "I love you Edward" It escaped my mouth as a whisper and I let myself succumb to sleep. 




Okay Monkeys here is your panting dropping experience for the week...Sorry it's taken so long to get it up (no pun intended...LOL)...Anyway hope you like...Its not really a long chapter but the next one is going to be pretty long so hopefully that will make you hoors happy...Huggies and Squishies...Love you!!!


Video taken from: YouTube.com  Lisa Hall "is the real?"
Image from...I forget where I got it...had it stored on my computer for a while now...

 

Check it out hookers...It's my First YouTube Video!!!

Alright all you Robsten hoors...Here is a little something special that I made you for your pantie dropping pleasure...Enjoy...Huggies and Squishies...I don't know how people sit around and make these damn things all day long, this shit took for eva!!! Oh well thought it would be nice, since there has been a Robsten drought lately...Fun times!

University of Eternity Chapter 12 part 2

 

Chapter 12

Wave of Existence Part 2

 

 

 

EPOV



    I was downstairs in the kitchen waiting for Bella to come down and for my family to get home. I heard her upstairs moving around, the shower turned on, I could hear the water flower out of the shower head, cascading down her body and hitting the floor of the shower and going down the drain. The moist heat of the steam filled my senses, I could smell her, the salt water, the scent of our bodies, the sex from both of us, and like a bomb it hit me. I could smell her arousal wafting through me, that heady floral scent that was only Bella. Fuck it was engrossing, it over took me. I was enraptured and before I knew what I was doing, I was standing outside of my bathroom door; I could hear her pulse heavy and quick, her arousal speeding through her veins, and her heavy breathing. I couldn't take it, jesusfuckingchrist, I was so turned on, and my dick was hard and throbbing against my jeans. I swiftly stepped into my bathroom to see her, I know that this wasn't right, that I shouldn't be there, but fuck she was touching herself, one hand was plunging between her wet thighs and the other was bracing her against the glass shower door. My hand went up to meet hers on the other side of the glass, her head snapped up. Her eyes were so deep and intense; I had caught her off guard. I had not control, it was lost going down the drain along with the water that was showering Bella's erotic form.

    "Don't stop" the words came out of my mouth heavy with lust. I just looked back into her eyes, breathing deep and heavy taking in her scent. My hand free hand reached out to the button on my jeans and I slipped it down to my fully hard dick.

    She looked back, her movements frozen. She then let her eyes wander down to what I was doing to myself. I blush came over her chest creeping up her neck making its way to her cheeks, coloring them the most amazing she of pink. She slowly started to move her hand in between her thighs, letting her thumb come up and rub small circles on her clit. I just watched her as I pulled my dick free of the cloth prison and started stroking myself. Pumping myself slow and hard to her rhythm; my eyes never left her body, never left her intense gaze. This was the single most fucking erotic moment in my existence.

    "Fuck…Bella...So fucking beautiful" I breathed out heavy against my panting and stroking.

    "Edward...oh fuck…ahh" She let out in heavy pants, biting her bottom lip. "Edward...I'm so close…" Her fingers started moving faster and I picked up my own pace.

    "Baby…make yourself come for me...Look at me…I want to see you come baby" And with that her skin started to flush, her breathing and heart rate were fast and intense and with a heavy whimper I watched her orgasm course through her body. Her head came forward in an almost jerked movement towards the glass door.

    "Edward come in here…I want your body against mine…I want to watch you come" Fuck me, with those words I tore my shirt off and ripped my jeans down and was in the shower with her. When I stepped in and continued stroking my hard cock, Bella's little hand wrapped right around mine. She was stroking it with me. She started placing open mouthed kisses against my chest, as the water flowed over us.

    "Touch me Edward…I want to feel your hands on my body" I reached my free hand out and touched her face letting it travel down her neck, and along her supple breast, I rubbed my thumb across her perfect pink erect nipple.

    "I'm...so…close…baby…Fuuuck…uuuhhh" And with that my body stiffened and I let my own orgasm release from me. I wrapped myself around her, pulling her up and kissing her deeply with everything that I was. My body was on fire for her, she awakened a need, pure lust, and endless love and longing for her that I never thought possible. Her mouth was hot against mine, her small hands gripping my wet hair.

    With the hot water cascading between us, I pumped in and out of Bella, until we both came hard against each other. I set her down on the marble bench in the shower and washed her body. Paying attention to every curve and plain; placing kisses along the way.

    "Baby…my family is going to be home any minute...we should get out and get dressed" I said as I placed another soft kiss upon her lips. "I know this is so much to process…but I really think it will help if we talk to them…and I know that they want to meet you" I gave her my half smile, looking down at her with all of the love that I had. She was so beautiful; I was never going to be able to live without her. She was now the center of my being, she was my world.

    "Okay…I trust you Edward…I love you" She looked back into my eyes with a small understanding smile. She stood up and I led her out of the shower and dried off her body and mine. When we stepped out of the bathroom and back into my bedroom I heard my family outside. They were in the backyard making their way into the house. In the way that Alice and I spoke, I sent her a quiet thought of thanks. She smiled back at me and opened her mind, showing me how happy that the family was and that when we were ready they would be downstairs in the living room waiting for us to talk.

    Bella and I dressed; I gave her a clean t-shirt of mine. It was a little too big but she just took in the excess material and tied it in a knot around her waist. There was something about seeing Bella in my clothes, fuck it was turning me on. I needed to get a grip, we needed to go down and talk to my family. Jesus she was so fucking sexy in my shirt, with her wet long hair wavy down her back. Once we were fully dressed I wrapped my arm around her shoulders and placed a kiss against her temple and led her down the stairs to the living room.

    "You ready baby…you don't have anything to worry about" I didn't really know what to say.

    "Yeah...I think so…I…uh…I hope that they like me" What? Was that seriously what she was nervous about, fuck I think I just fell more in love with her.

    "Baby they are going to love you...they already do…You can ask them anything you want…we don't have any secrets…I love you Bella…There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you" I smiled down at her and we walked into the living room where my family was waiting for us.

    "Bella...I'm Alice...it's so good to finally meet you in person" Alice bounced up off the couch throwing her arms around Bella.

    "Oh…howz it Alice" Bella was a bit taken back by Alice's hug.

    "Okay Alice…uhhh…Bella this is my family…my brother's Jasper and Emmett, my sister Rosalie, you know Carlisle and this is…well this is Esme our mother for all intense and purpose" They all came up to her, giving her a hug.

    "Hey there wahine…it's about damn time" Emmett said to her as he pulled into a big bear hug lifting her off the floor. Giving me a wink over her shoulder and of course letting me see what her was thinking…dude she is smoking…way to go bro. I just shot him back a look. As he snickered at me, Rose came up behind Emmett slapping him on the back of the head. Giving Bella a small hug.

    "I'm Rose…sorry about the brut…he is harmless" Bella let out a little laugh.

    "Oh…Bella it is so good to meet you" Esme said as she hugged Bella in a motherly way, overcome with emotions that her son had finally found someone.

    "Bella…it's my pleasure" Jasper said in his southern drawl, squeezing her in a brotherly hug.

    "Bella…it's so good to see you again" Carlisle said as he was the last one to come up and hug her, giving her his soft and sincere smile. After everyone had their turn hugging Bella and giving their little greeting we moved back towards the couches, each sitting with our respective mate. I pulled Bella into my lap and sat in the over-stuffed chair.

    "So, Bella…I am sure you have quite a few questions for us. I just want you to know that we will answer anything you would like to know" Carlisle stated.

    "Yeah for sure wahine…we have all the dirt you could ever want to know here about our dear Edward" Emmett let out.

    "Jesus Emmett the girl just got here…for crying out loud" Rose said smacking Em on the back of the head again. Everyone let out a snicker.

    "Ummm…well…I guess I don't really know what to ask…I uh have never really been in this situation before"

    "No worries baby…just ask whatever...talk story…it's all good" I said to her as I kissed her hair and played with her fingers that were wrapped in mine.

    "Um…okay…I guess so" We sat there for a few moments, waiting for Bella to continue.

    "So…you are all…um…your all vampires?" She asked in a hesitant tone. Everyone just smiled at her.

    "Yes Bella. We are vampires, but I want you to know that you are safe. Maybe you should start with what you think you may know about our kind. Then we can go from there" Carlisle answered.

    "Okay…I guess" Bella took a deep breath. "So uh…shit…oh…sorry" She blushed, I just rubbed her back. Everyone laughed.

    "Bella no worries…I have three boys…that is hardly anything to apologize for sweetie" Esme giggled. That was for sure; between us we had worse mouths than a ship full of drunken pirates.

    "Oh…well…I guess…So like what do you eat, aren't you supposed to be like afraid of the light or something like that?" She asked fidgeting. I could tell she was nervous.

    "Well Bella, our family doesn't feed in the way that you are thinking of…We consider ourselves to be vegetarians. We only feed on the blood of animals, we need blood to survive however we do not take human lives, we have found an alternative way to live and as far as the sunlight goes, we have no issue with being in the light. However we don't go in the sunlight in front of humans, are skin becomes iridescent and we would instantly be found out. So even though it does not hurt us to be in the sunlight, we do not go out in it in front of humans, to keep our true identity safe" Carlisle explained to her in his calm and soothing voice.

    "Oh so you don't have to sleep in coffins or anything like that?" Everyone started to giggle again.

    "No baby, we don't have coffins…in fact we don't sleep" I said to her.

    "Like you don't sleep at all...ever?" She asked.

    "Nope not at all" I replied.

    "Oh...wow" She just sat there in my lap contemplating the information. I could almost see the wheels turning in her mind. Fuck I wish I could read her mind sometimes. Everyone sat there patiently waiting for Bella. Their minds were so clear; I could see what everyone was thinking except of course Bella. "Um…how old are all of you?"

    "Well do you mean what our human age was or how long have we been 'alive'?"Carlisle asked.

    "Both I guess…I mean Edward is 17…but he is like over 100 years old right? Wow that sounds so odd when I say it out loud" Bella had a look of strange understanding wash over her face.

    "Well I was 25 when I found this life, but that was over 300 years ago…Esme was 26 and she is 80 years old, Rose was 18 and is over 80 years old, Emmett is the youngest well he is 19 but has only been in this life for 70 years…Jasper is 17 as well and is over 200 years old...Alice is 16 we think and we aren't entirely sure how old she is…see Alice doesn't remember being human, or who changed her, she only knows this life" Carlisle told her.

    "I don't know anything about my past…I just remember being this, I don't know much else…all I had were my instincts and my visions…I was lost for a long time until I found others like me that showed me how to live…years later I had a vision of Jazz in a diner…I just knew I was supposed to be with him…So when the time came, I went and found him, I waited for days until he showed up to that stupid diner...and I had heard about this coven of vampires living a different lifestyle and I wanted to be there…I wanted to be one of them…I had visions of them and how they lived…so when I found Jazz I instantly took him with me…and came and found Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie, Emmett and Edward…I just sort of invited myself and Jazz to move right on in" Alice said in her excited bouncy voice, with a huge grin and a look of complete and utter admiration, love and gratitude in her eyes.

    "Damn…they just let you move right on in…no questions asked?" Bella asked

    "Well Carlisle and Esme were more than welcoming…they took us right in, showing us how they lived, teaching us how to abstain from feeding off of humans, learning how to control the urges…they were great!! Alice chirped "Rose and Emmett weren't living with them all the time then, so we got to know them gradually…Edward on the other hand was a pain in my ass" She glanced over at me giving me her evil pixie smirk. "He is such a brooding bastard…he didn't really give a shit and he cared about was his company, surfing, and his precious guitar and piano" She looked at me and batted her lashes, responding in her 'seriously-Edward' tone of voice. Jasper just sat there snickering, I could see what he was thinking, asshole. I rolled my eyes at him.

    "Yep me and the old lady were kicked out for a bit…apparently they couldn't handle all my lovin...mmm mmm good" Emmett spat out.

    "Emmett...sorry, but everyone was getting tired of having to repair holes in the walls and replace furniture because you couldn't keep your 'lovin' as you called it…in check" Esme said in a sarcastic tone and then let out a flowery laugh.

    "Jesus Em…I don't think Bella needs a visual…for Christ's sake…Bella what my oaf of a man beast is trying to say is…we were knew in our relationship and well it was pretty intense, love days hitting us and lasting for ever…so yeah the sex got a little out of control and for the sanity of the family Em and I went off and lived on our own for a few years until it leveled out...well until he could control himself" rose snickered at Em pinching his nipple. Everyone busted out in hysterics.

    "Oh…damn…uh what is a 'love day'…I don't understand?" Bella asked after everyone calmed down.

    "Baby…umm 'love days' are umm, well they are hard to explain…uhh…anyone want to help me out here?" I asked my family, I needed a hand out on this one, being that I have yet to have one, all though I knew it was coming. When you meet your mate, it is inevitable, and this made me nervous, how I was supposed to deal with a 'love day' with Bella, I don't ever want to hurt her, fuck, the reality of that hit me and scared the shit out of me.

    "Bella a 'love day' well that's what the kid's call them, but it is a day or days that our kind have when we find our mate. They are an intense onslaught of emotions, we become somewhat insatiable for our mate, it is almost as though we are put in some sort of euphoric trance, we become almost hypnotized by our mate, the need, and it is an all consuming desire. We think because of the lifestyle that we live and we abstain from human blood, that the natural hunger we feel for humans has somehow transformed into this unbridled desire for our mate, it causes our connection to deepen and go beyond what we feel. I don't know if Edward has explained this to you yet, but our kind only have one mate, and it is an unbreakable bond, in a scientific sense, we mate for life, or in our case, eternity. Vampires when they find their mate...well it becomes almost an obsession, its magnetic, to halves of a whole joining and fussing. Esme is my mate, as is Jasper to Alice and Rosalie to Emmett and…well as you are to Edward" Carlisle looked at Bella trying to convey the meaning of the day, but it really can't be explained until it happens. Bella sat there, her heart beat sped up, I could feel a slight surge of adrenaline course through her veins. I wrapped my arms around her, holding her to my body.

    "Does that help baby? Are you okay?" I asked her, I could tell that she was starting to feel overwhelmed.

    "Well, I think that Bella has had enough for the day…Bella sweetie, I just want you to know that we are all here for you, always. I am so happy that Edward has found you and I am just so glad that you are here…Anything you need sweetie we will be here" Esme spoke softly to Bella, her motherly instincts kicking in, knowing that Bella was feeling overwhelmed and needed a break.

    "Mahalo…I guess I just need a minute" She spoke barely a whisper. Everyone stood up smiling whole-heartedly at Bella and retreated from the living room.

    "Bella…thank you…if you need anything don't hesitate…I'm really happy you're finally here" Alice said as she left with Jazz's arm wrapped around her shoulder.

    "No worries Alice" She replied softly. I just held her there next to my body, letting her process everything that she given. I knew this couldn't be easy for her, but I was willing to do whatever I had to, to make sure she was comfortable and safe. I just wanted her to know that she was loved, that everything was going to be okay. But, I didn't know that for certain, how could I? There was going to be some tough times ahead of us, but Bella was the strongest person I knew, I just had to believe in that. I loved her and she was my everything, for the rest of my existence.

    "Baby…do you want to go upstairs and rest?" I asked her as I stroked her soft locks.

    "Uhh...yeah I guess so" I stood up from the chair holding Bella bridal style; she wrapped her arms around my neck and laid her head against my shoulder. I could tell she was exhausted; I kissed her forehead softly, and whispered that I loved her and carried her upstairs to my bedroom. She was asleep by the time I laid her down on my bed, well her bed. I slipped her jeans off and tucked her into the covers and slid in beside her and wrapped my arms around her. Damn I loved this woman; I buried my face into her hair and just let her sleep. 


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Okee Dokee hookers there it is Chapter 12 part 2...sorry it took so long to get it out to you...I have just had my ass handed to me lately and have been ocupado...Doesn't mean I don't love you hoors any less...Let me know what you think...Huggies and Squishies...

Para social Narcissism: Can You Accept Responsiblity?

 Here is a little twisted mind fuck for ya!!!! Don't ask what got me started on this...realization of my human condition I suppose, with a side of Miller Lite and my new class schedule...That and my battle with becoming and author...Which is totally fucktastic if I do say so myself....But it does pose questions about one's self to come to the surface!!!!

Alright monkeys I  have something for you. Para social Narcissism. Let me explain first off, how many Para Social relationships do you  harbor in your life? Do you think that you have a relationship with celebrity, some one who is in fact based on a ficticious character, portrayed by a living breathing human being? Do you think that having these relationships some how make you look better, do you do it to make yourself in fact feel better? Does having these so-called relationships in any way shape or form impact the person that you are? Do you form these relationships to make yourself look better, feel better? Do you from these relationships to make yourself look better, does it give the perception that you are some how a better person, more confident, more popular, better looking even?

Do you even know that you have formed these relationships, and to what purpose they serve and to what end? Do they make you feel like you belong, fit in, are in fact part of the 'in-crowd'?

Para Social- the ‘relationship’ between the viewer and an on-screen character (mediadictionary.com, 2010 )

Narcissism- A psychoanalytic term meaning self-love (lexic.us, 1998)

How many times a day do you look in the mirror and compare yourself to a celebrity? How many hours a day to sit around thinking "if only"? 

Do you feel that you honestly know the other person in your one-sided relationship?

Do you know what they think, feel, ambitions, fears, passions; are theses things that you have personal knowledge of? Or have you used your own personal expereinces, your feeling, your ambitions, your passions and some how morphed them into there own, to rectify your secret obsession? All in the name of making yourself look and feel better? 

So what do ya say hookers? 

In this day and age we are surrounded by limitless media, it literally touches all aspects of our lives. Tell me when was the last time that you did not have some sort of screen, in front of you, allowing you the access you crave, to your so-called relationship? 

Cellphones, computers, television, radio, magazines. You give yourself complete and utter permission to be able to get your fix at any moment. 

On the internet you hook yourself up with youtube, myspace, facebook, twiiter, formspring, tumbler, and a limitless amount of blogs, Your relationship has infinite fuel.

But my real question here monkeys, is do you still know yourself? Do you know yourself enough, that you could break away, that you could still indentify with basic human existence? 

Fame is an absolute illusion. It is not real. Those celebrities are not real. Those characters that you have created in your mind are not real? However, they are real people. Living breathing completely and ridiculously flawed human beings. That is real, they bleed, they cry, they shit just like everyone else. Just because they have a bigger house, a better car, designer clothes, and deep wallets, does not, and I repeat does not make them any better, smarter, prettier, happier, or more complete than you are.   

Here is my truth!

I have multiple Facebook pages, I have a myspace account, I have a twitter account, I have a heyhey account, I have google friend connect, youtube account, 2 blogs, 2 FanFic account IM, skype, hotmail, aol, gmail...I own a cellphone, house phone, I have three T.V.'s in my house, I own two laptop computers, and an iPad. I have wireless internet, satelitte T.V. 

The first thing I do in the morning after I get up and feed my son breakfast is check my Facebook, AOL, and my blog.  

I know that I harbor Para Social relationships. I read gossip pages, I have a ton of people on my Twitter and Facebook. 

Now here is where I get brutally honest...I have these things because I want to be aware!  I have these things to fullfill a promise to myself, that when I decided to write I would do what I needed to do to make that happen. In truth the only thing I need is a pen and paper. Now, why do I have all of these things if I only need pen and paper? Well because in my mind, I want to share, I want to give, I want allow others to be aware of an alternative. Is that narcissistic? Perhaps. I don't doubt it, in fact being narcissistic is part of the human condition. We are the only species on this planet that feel the need for approval.

Now the thing you need to realize is are you using that approval for a purpose? Are you committing yourself to these technologies, these para social relationships for good? Can you accept the responsibility of being para socially narcissistic?  

I can accept the responsibility, I understand what it is I am doing. Because if you take all of that away from me, I know who I am. I have an identity all my own. 

SO MONKEYS...Can you?

 I love all you hoors out there, and I am eternally grateful that I get to share with you my words. But I hope that in this media shit storm that you never lose you! UNDERSTAND??? Now that, that mind fuck is over with...Did you all see that bullshit headline today about Rob and Kristen? Seriously the shit is starting to get out of control...Let them have a fucking meal people, without turning it into some giant love fest....They have to eat to ya know!!!

Well this crazy stubborn moody hooker is off to do some more writing...So I have something to share with you skanktards...You can call me the Mistress of Smut...Shower scene take two!!!!?????

Who is up for some pantie dropping, lip licking, FanFiction??? I know I am!!!

LOVE YOU MONKEYS!!!! Huggies and Squishies!!!

University of Eternity Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Wave of Existence Part 1

 

 

       

    I was in a state of complete love, my mind was silent, and my immortal body was at peace. Bella did this, she made me whole. Her small figure lay beneath me, her delicate flesh was burning into me, the air moving in and out of her started to slow, the beat of her heart started to regulate itself, her scent blanketed all of my senses. Once I was able to focus myself I ever so slowly pulled myself out of her. I instantly felt like a part of me was missing at the separation. She let out the slightest whimper from my retreat. Fuck she felt so amazing, I never wanted to be any place again other than with Bella. I needed her, I wanted her, I loved her with every fiber of my eternal existence. As I started to move away from her she pulled me back and crushed her swollen lips to mine, wrapping her perfect fingers into my hair. Shit this woman was going to be the death of me; I pressed my lips back into hers and couldn't help the smile that was forming as I kissed her back. With all of my will power I pulled my head away from hers, I needed to look into her eyes, those beautiful deep chocolate eyes.

    "Bella" damn I loved saying her name, her eyes fluttered open under her long dark lashes "Baby…are you okay?" I just stared into her deep eyes needing to know that she was okay, that I didn't hurt her; I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I ever hurt her.

    "Perfect" she whispered to me, in husky satisfied tone, it was lusty and heavy. Fuck that started to turn me on, just the sound of her voice ignited my desire for her. I couldn't look away from her; a small satisfied smile was being formed from her plump lips. As I stared into her eyes, the song playing in the background caught my attention, "Under My Skin" by Peter Bradley Adams, and she was, my Bella was under my skin, and it felt like perfection.

    "Bella…I love you" She just looked up at me with her satisfied eyes and smiled. "Thank you" I whispered back to her and I rolled over and pulled her close to me. I wasn't ready for her body not to be on mine, I don't think I would ever be ready to feel her. But I knew that I needed to finish explaining everything to her, I knew she was going to have questions. But in this moment I just wanted to hold her, feel her body against mine. So I just laid there letting the music fill the room, enjoying Bella in my arms, watching out the window as twilight settled in for the day. My family would be back soon. I definitely owed Alice big for this. The next song that came on was "Only the Ocean" by Jack Johnson, Bella nuzzled closer.

    "I this song" as she said that, it made me think, for me, it was only the ocean and her. She was my perfect wave. "I used to live a few miles away from him…I always would see him and his family getting plate lunch at Mackey's Shrimp Truck in Haleiwa" she let a little laugh. "Mmm…Edward, can I ask you something?" of course she could ask me something.

    "Yeah love what is it?" I was sure she was going to ask about my 'existence'.

    "Ummm…well…it's about the board you gave me" She paused for a moment "Did you make that board…I was just wondering cause…well the logo on the board was similar to the one on the note card?" Really? That is what she wanted to ask me?

    "Uh…um yeah, that's my board" Where was she going with this?

    "Well…it's a beautiful board…I have never had a board that nice, it feels like it was made just for me…when I was riding it, it felt perfect…it just…well I have never had a board like that…thank you"

    "Your welcome baby…I was hoping you would love it" I kissed her head a hugged her close to me.

    "Edward...Uh…I looked it up on the internet" Okay…now I was going to have to do some more explaining, this might get a little complicated. Surfing had always been my life, it was my world, and when I joined this life, it became my existence. "I was just curious, is Haleiwa Boards your company?" She asked hesitantly. Okay, I guess it was time to get up and start explaining. My family would be here soon, I think they will be able to help with this too.

    "Um…yes. Bella, I think maybe would be a good time to have a talk about…well about me and my existence"


 
BPOV


 
    I was in a daze. I just had sex! Holy fuck that was the most incredible experience of my life; it was nothing like how I thought it would be. It didn't even come close to what I thought that I knew. I mean I had a couple girlfriends back home and when they told me about losing their virginity, I just kind of figured that I would end up in the same awkward, painful and short lived experience like the rest of them. But this, this was nothing like what they told me. I mean yeah it hurt for about a half a second, but then I was filled with the most intense pleasure, all I wanted was more. More of Edward, and on top of the whole thing he told me that he loved me! Like holy mind fuck! I was over taken by everything that has happened between us in the last week and I just let myself feel. I let it all go. And I let myself do whatever came naturally. It was like setting up for the perfect wave. The excitement, anticipation, the adrenaline pumping through my body; it was so intense. Even after everything that Edward had revealed about himself, I didn't fully understand it all. But I knew I was safe with him, I could feel it in every part of me, my mind, my body, my heart, my soul, down to my very core. I knew Edward wouldn't hurt me.

    Laying there in Edward's arms in my first post coital bliss, thinking about all of the new feelings that I had and was experiencing, I recognized Jack Johnson come on in the background. I loved his music, it was funny listening to him away from home, and I would occasionally see him in Haleiwa out with his family or riding his bike. Then it hit me, I wanted to ask Edward about the board, about the company. I felt a little weird asking him, but I just had to know. When I asked him about it, it seemed as though he started to get nervous almost. I didn't really mean to make him nervous about the whole thing, I loved the board, I just wanted to know more, more about him I guess. That is when he told me it would be a good time to talk about him and his existence, oh shit this didn't sound good.

    "Um…okay" I didn't know what to say.

    "Bella...Maybe we should put our close back on for this" Shit this can't be good, he is telling me to get dressed already. Fuck! I tried to act as calm as possible, I sat up on the bed, suddenly feeling a little shy. Edward got up and walked over to the pile of clothes on the floor. God damn that boy has a nice ass. Fuck, I felt a little weird, but he seemed to be comfortable, which helped me calm down a little, just a little though. He slid his jeans back on, walked over to his dresser and pulled out a clean t-shirt.

    "Uh…I will give you a minute, you can use my bathroom if you would like. I am going to go downstairs to the kitchen" he paused a moment "Will you meet down there when you are ready?" He asked so sweetly, it made the corners of my mouth curl up just slightly. I nodded in agreement. He walked back over to the bed, he reached out and placed his hand on my cheek and bent down and kissed me softly on the lips. Shit that made me hot all over again, I was about a millisecond away from dropping the sheet I was holding up to my chest and pulling him back down on this bed. I reached up and placed my hand over his; he pulled back from the kiss and looked me in my eyes. God he had beautiful eyes.

    "I will be right down stairs baby…just come down when you're ready…I love you" And with that he walked out of his bedroom gently closing the door behind me to get dressed.

    I sat there for a moment before getting up off of the bed; the cool air hit my naked body and sent Goosebumps cascading over my skin. I picked up my clothes off of the floor and walked into Edwards's bathroom. Fuck his bathroom was bigger than my bedroom. It had a huge shower, with glass going from the floor to the ceiling, a huge rainfall shower head. The floors and walls were what looked like marble. There was a lounge pushed up against the large window. The vanity was a dark walnut, with two vessel sinks, and large mirrors that hung over them. The towels that were hanging were a gleaming white, I reached my hand out to touch them, and they were so soft and plush. I ran my finger along the marble countertop and looked up into the mirror over the sink. Damn I have total sex hair, like really bad, just got-laid-hair. I felt salty and sweaty, so that is when I decided that I was going to take a quick shower. Besides Edward's shower looked so fucking divine I couldn't resist. I opened one of the cabinets to look for a towel; I really didn't want to use the one hanging up. When I found the towels, they were all the same, white fluffy and soft. I couldn't resist so I peeked into the rest of the cabinets, everything was so organized, like something out of a magazine. Under his sink I saw a wooden box that contained a bunch of bars of milled soap; they looked expensive, all individually wrapped with a fancy label. I think they were French or something, I don't know. I picked one up and smelled it, it was subtle, natural, with a hint of something sweet, and I couldn't place it. It didn't smell overly manly so, I took the wrapper off and went to turn the shower on. I let the water run until I found my desired temperature. God the hot water was cascading down my body, I felt engulfed, it was so relaxing, my skin was so sensitive from having had the most intense orgasm of my life and the water felt like my skin was being showered in soft hot kisses. I took the soap in my hands and lathered it up, and started rubbing it all over my body. Shit I was getting turned on all over again. Fuck why Edward couldn't have just stayed up here and joined me.

    My mind started going crazy with flashes of what Edward had just done to my body, what I had just done to his. I was thinking about his beautiful cock, his hands exploring my body, his lips touching every inch of me, his tongue plunging into the depths of my hot wet center. Fuck me, I was so fucking turned on, I was aching again. My hands started to wander over my wet breast, I pinched my own nipple lightly, I then slid my hands down my stomach, remember Edward's touch. My breathing started to get heavy, I let my fingers of my right hand trace down to my clit, a throaty moan excepted my lips when I started to touch myself. I placed my left hand up against the glass shower door to brace myself. My head was down and my eyes were closed, reeling in my memories of Edward and me. I heard a deep moan, and all of a sudden I felt the glass beneath my hand shake. My head shot up and my eyes opened in shock. Dark deep embers, were staring back at me, clouded with lust, heat, need. Edward's eyes stared back at mine so intensely, and they slowly gazed down to where my hand was on my body. Fuck! I was frozen.

    "Don't stop" was all he said in a deep velvety tone, it was so husky and brazen, he just stood there looking at me, watching me, waiting for me. Fuck I was turned on all over again; this boy was making me hot.


 
    TO BE CONTINUED…

Image taken from google.com

Music retrieved from youtube.com

Songs by: Peter Bradly Adams "Under My Skin"

Jack Johnson "Only the Ocean"

Okee dokee monkeys there is your Chapter 12...its a two parter...so here is the first part...next part will be out soon enough...I love you hoors...huggies and squishies...let me know what you think!!! Kiss Kiss! Hope you love the tunes...some of my favorite songs...yeah!!!